This transfer is going WAY TOO FAST! It’s really crazy, the work is going strong:
1. Curtis, we are praying for him and his aunt to be baptized on June 18th.
2. Marisa, We are teaching her 2 times this week and going to give her a date for June 18th or 25th. (She needs to get married)
3. Lana, has now come to church 2 times in a row a stayed all 3 hours. She loves it, we had a great lesson together in class and she knows a lot of people in the ward. She really loves it, she is going out of town for 9 days in 2 weeks and she doesn’t want to start lessons until after that. That makes me nervous because anything can happen, but we went over and gave her a restoration DVD and pamphlet and she just ate them up, showed me Sunday, it was all marked up, she is really studying. we felt that if she still wants to wait on lessons (officially, because we still get over to her and talk about 3 times or 4 a week, short briefly, we need to feed it to her and have her commit to reading the book of Mormon while she is on her cruse! So when she comes home, we can continue strong. Do you think that would be good? She needs to stop smoking!
Curtis, Lana and Skylar came to church Sunday! Skylar is a 17 year old boy, and struggling, but likes to be around Erin (a member) his old girlfriend. We went and talked to him last night and shared with him the restoration, enough for him to know what our call is and how if he'd like to learn more, we would teach him with Erin's family. He said his mom would say no. I asked him to read the pamphlet and pray about it, ask God if it's true. Because if it is, it's worth fighting for and not giving up. He said he would. I think he'll take the lessons. they just got evicted from their apt. so we asked him to call us for service, we will help, and I said, (he's been to church 4+times) know that these people in the ward are your family, we want to help serve you any way we can. Will you call us. He said yes. So pray for them.
Ok something that's been heavy on me....I don't know if I told you, but I'm planning on taking the early transfer in SEPT. But lately I have been thinking and praying about staying until November. I have felt right about leaving in September since the beginning of my mission, but now I'm questioning,.. It’s weird, I'm trying to ask Heavenly Father where I would be happiest because I know so far even when something is hard as long as I am obedient and steadfast in following Heavenly Father and the promptings of the Holy Ghost, God wants us to be happiest and he keeps his promises. So, I have been praying to see where he wants me to be. But so far, no answer! .....
Sister Taylor and I are getting along good. She works hard and I have come to see how much I've grown, because I let things go a lot more than I used to, there are more ways to get the same job done. The spirit works in many ways. Sister Taylor is learning to look at people in the eye and slow down when she teaches, and I am learning to share teaching responsibilities. She’s been the 1st companion since my trainer that wants to teach and testify and will just as much as me. So that has been a good challenge to find the balance between us with the spirit to teach. I feel happy when I am humbly learning....sometimes it takes a while to be humble, but I am grateful for my chastening because they help me with humility and charity.
I felt extremely blessed to see Brother Brazil (a recent convert) go through the temple Saturday and then to see him be sealed to his parents! WHAT A MIRACLE! I couldn't help it, I bawled like a baby! I can't explain how I feel when families are sealed together forever! I wish ya'll could have been there. I feel such a drive to always stay worthy to take my family to the temple and be willing to live our lives to be receptive of this secret special gift. I feel like King Lamoni's dad who said "I will give away my entire kingdom to know this truth.....I will give away all my sins just to know you" he's talking of God.
How often we take for granted the most sacred things in our lives:
1. Our family: being together forever through temple sealings.
2. Our Father in Heaven: his plan for ALL his children (that's everyone), and all he asks us to do is "keep my all my commandments"
3. Our Savior Jesus Christ: Who suffered and died for us so we might overcome Spiritual and physical death. As long as we become as a child, meek submissive and full of patience!! (That’s a hard one) but if we don't become as a child, we cannot enter into the kingdom of Heaven!
I know this church is true, I know that without it, I am nothing. Alma 5....I know we have a living prophet on the earth today and he is called of God to keep the word and gospel pure and true! I know this because when I pray...when I'm humble enough to actually be ready to hear the whisperings from the Holy Ghost, I feel warm, like my heart is too big for me, and I feel the love of my father and of my savior. This makes me happy! Why aren't we as members the happiest people on the planet. If I only knew what my mission was going to be for me and the people I have met that have changed my life forever and the lessons I couldn’t have learned anywhere else in the world, I would have crawled on my hands and knees to the MTC! It’s TRUE! I bear my testimony that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints has the fullness of truth. And is in fact the only true church on the face of the earth, because Christ is the head of it. And by reading the book of Mormon one will become closer to my Heavenly Father. I bear this testimony in the name of our savior Jesus Christ Amen!
-Sister Judkins
IRON MAN we saw and jumped out of the car because we were stuck in traffic anyways, we were going to go do service hence the regular work out clothes; we started screaming and hoot'n and passing out cards and teaching lessons!!! SOOO GREAT!!! They were really intense!!! One of the ladies talked to my companion and said "well, you have a wild one don't you?"....I have no idea what she's talking about. ;) I'm very calm and quiet! Ok...I'm not. It was funny! She was asking lots of questions and I think she's talk with her Mormon friends she works with. We both agreed, we liked her! :)
Then brother Brazil and I when he went through the temple and got sealed to his parents
Rabevra Ofczarzak and me at the temple! Love her! In our favor the wind and humidity was not in our favor!
Sister Taylor ( my companion! ) and me at the IRON MAN competition! SO AWESOME!!! The cars were stuck for hours, then we left our lights on and all the cars were honking and I had to run really fast to get the car out of the way! Ha ha!!! LOVE IT!
Love you all!
-Sister Judkins
Monday, May 23, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
Letter #59
WOW!!!!! TRANSFER CALLSLSLSLSLSL@!!!!!!! :DDDDD
SWEET!!! I'm super excited, I'm probably going to be surprised, but I'm so excited. I am getting a new companion her name is Sister Taylor!!!!! Sister Layton is going to College Station!! She is going to LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!! I'm super jealous for her, but alas, it is what it is!!! I'm still in Montgomery and Sister Taylor has been here once before, in fact she was here 9 months ago, she was "born" here, she started her mission here. She is excited to be here, and I am excited because we have a lot of work to do, and I can hear in her, that she is ready and I hope I'm ready.
I got SOOO SICK a few days ago! I have no idea really what was going on, I think just stress and being hard headed and not eating....hmmm yea! Ok so here's what happened. We went to the temple and the 2 nights before I probably slept a total of 6 hours. And the night before I felt like I was gunna barf, so I didn't eat anything because I also felt incredibly blotted and fat! Oh it was horrible, I'm sure you love that imagery. so I get to the temple, and do everything I can not to yuck during the session, I get up to go through and at that very moment I felt a deep sick (I can't really explain how it felt) I all of a sudden got cold sweats and felt like my body was being squeezed from the inside out, I could hardly walk, I finished and once he grabbed my hand to go through I collapsed on him. My vision went blurry and I felt like was a cold clammy Jell-O mold, that couldn't keep its shape. He asked " are you week?” ...I could hardly talk...he quickly sat me down, once I interred the celestial room all this overwhelming pain and this feeling of not having any control stopped....
....I looked pale, like a ghost a women said, I thought I looked green...it was really a little miracle for me though, how much Satan doesn't want us to be doing the right things and following our savior Jesus Christ. Especially going to the temple and doing work for those who cannot do it for themselves. What an incredible blessing it was for me to feel the, I guess calm after the storm physically. It was weird, but absolutely wonderful....
This week has been tough, but good, because I've had to rest (president's wife's orders) and try harder to actually take care of myself and start eating and stop worrying. Transfer calls have relieved a lot of stress for me. I have learned a LOT! How to be truly patient, loving, and long SUFFERING!! My poor companions. Don’t get the wrong I idea I know my companions have learned the same being companions with me...but trials are a blessing. Because God gives us trials so we can grow, I'm great full that I have more to learn and much more room to grow! what a bleak life if I thought to myself "oh I don't need this", or "I am too busy to do that calling" I've met great examples in my life of following the savior and fighting (maybe sometimes kicking and screaming) through trails, but their examples of plowing through trials keeps me going, helps me know "if they can do it, so can I"....plus I guess I am a bit competitive. ;)
Holland still didn’t' get the Holy Ghost....we're working on that!
Curtis was at a ball game this Sunday and didn't come to church.... :(
NEW ONE CAME THOUGH!!--- Lana ;she is incredible!!!
Ok, short story: I felt impressed to see her all day one day, but I ignored it, then on our way home, a car stopped in front of me, and I asked? What street does Lana live on? And lo and behold it was the street right in front of my face where the car stopped. UGH! I said, fine God, you win. (Why am I so hard headed all the time? can you answer me that one) anyway. Lana I called 6 weeks, ago, she came to church, but left because she thought she was late, she'd been ignoring us since) so I'm thinking, "ok, work your magic"...I walked up to the door and before I could get to it, she opened and she was not happy looking....but long story short, I ran up and gave her a hug (cause that's just what I do) and she came out and talked, started bawling after 45 minutes of teaching the plan of salvation and listening to how her brother was killed in a car accident and I asked "Lana, God sent us here today to you, he loves you, are you ready to hear the message that families can be together forever and take the missionary lessons?" she was stumbled for words and them said plainly..."yes".... MIRACLES!!! She came to church on Sunday too!!
WOW I love this work!!!
I love you all with all my heart, and I know the church of Jesus Christ is in working order restored on the earth once more and for the final time! I love it, we know it!! LET’S SHARE IT!!!
-Love you all from here to home!
-Sister Judkins
SWEET!!! I'm super excited, I'm probably going to be surprised, but I'm so excited. I am getting a new companion her name is Sister Taylor!!!!! Sister Layton is going to College Station!! She is going to LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!! I'm super jealous for her, but alas, it is what it is!!! I'm still in Montgomery and Sister Taylor has been here once before, in fact she was here 9 months ago, she was "born" here, she started her mission here. She is excited to be here, and I am excited because we have a lot of work to do, and I can hear in her, that she is ready and I hope I'm ready.
I got SOOO SICK a few days ago! I have no idea really what was going on, I think just stress and being hard headed and not eating....hmmm yea! Ok so here's what happened. We went to the temple and the 2 nights before I probably slept a total of 6 hours. And the night before I felt like I was gunna barf, so I didn't eat anything because I also felt incredibly blotted and fat! Oh it was horrible, I'm sure you love that imagery. so I get to the temple, and do everything I can not to yuck during the session, I get up to go through and at that very moment I felt a deep sick (I can't really explain how it felt) I all of a sudden got cold sweats and felt like my body was being squeezed from the inside out, I could hardly walk, I finished and once he grabbed my hand to go through I collapsed on him. My vision went blurry and I felt like was a cold clammy Jell-O mold, that couldn't keep its shape. He asked " are you week?” ...I could hardly talk...he quickly sat me down, once I interred the celestial room all this overwhelming pain and this feeling of not having any control stopped....
....I looked pale, like a ghost a women said, I thought I looked green...it was really a little miracle for me though, how much Satan doesn't want us to be doing the right things and following our savior Jesus Christ. Especially going to the temple and doing work for those who cannot do it for themselves. What an incredible blessing it was for me to feel the, I guess calm after the storm physically. It was weird, but absolutely wonderful....
This week has been tough, but good, because I've had to rest (president's wife's orders) and try harder to actually take care of myself and start eating and stop worrying. Transfer calls have relieved a lot of stress for me. I have learned a LOT! How to be truly patient, loving, and long SUFFERING!! My poor companions. Don’t get the wrong I idea I know my companions have learned the same being companions with me...but trials are a blessing. Because God gives us trials so we can grow, I'm great full that I have more to learn and much more room to grow! what a bleak life if I thought to myself "oh I don't need this", or "I am too busy to do that calling" I've met great examples in my life of following the savior and fighting (maybe sometimes kicking and screaming) through trails, but their examples of plowing through trials keeps me going, helps me know "if they can do it, so can I"....plus I guess I am a bit competitive. ;)
Holland still didn’t' get the Holy Ghost....we're working on that!
Curtis was at a ball game this Sunday and didn't come to church.... :(
NEW ONE CAME THOUGH!!--- Lana ;she is incredible!!!
Ok, short story: I felt impressed to see her all day one day, but I ignored it, then on our way home, a car stopped in front of me, and I asked? What street does Lana live on? And lo and behold it was the street right in front of my face where the car stopped. UGH! I said, fine God, you win. (Why am I so hard headed all the time? can you answer me that one) anyway. Lana I called 6 weeks, ago, she came to church, but left because she thought she was late, she'd been ignoring us since) so I'm thinking, "ok, work your magic"...I walked up to the door and before I could get to it, she opened and she was not happy looking....but long story short, I ran up and gave her a hug (cause that's just what I do) and she came out and talked, started bawling after 45 minutes of teaching the plan of salvation and listening to how her brother was killed in a car accident and I asked "Lana, God sent us here today to you, he loves you, are you ready to hear the message that families can be together forever and take the missionary lessons?" she was stumbled for words and them said plainly..."yes".... MIRACLES!!! She came to church on Sunday too!!
WOW I love this work!!!
I love you all with all my heart, and I know the church of Jesus Christ is in working order restored on the earth once more and for the final time! I love it, we know it!! LET’S SHARE IT!!!
-Love you all from here to home!
-Sister Judkins
Letter #58
Happy Mothers day May 8th 2011
Well this week has been CRAZY!!!! A week of chastening and rebuking... (Darn it, I swear I didn't ask for it) .but overall, it ended in an incredible experience with Holland's Baptism on Saturday the 7th. What an incredible feeling of love and a wonderful blessing of a forever family soon to be. Her dad was actually able to baptize her. It was a blessing. It was a very emotional day for the family and yes....I cried as well. The spirit was so strong. Her dad was asked by Bishop to say a few words after the baptism. And it went a little like this:
“As you can see that was a very emotional thing for me and my family. I appreciate all of your support and I know you all really love us. And if there’s anything I can do for you, give me a call, and I will be there. my son Cain (who is deaf, but has an implant) came up to me after and I had him promise me something "cane, you promise me that you'll baptize all of your kids...promise me".....I couldn't baptize my oldest kids Lexxi and Cain, and I can't tell you how bad that makes me feel knowing how I feel now after baptizing Holland." (The whole family in the front row and my at the piano and their dad speaking are now all crying...all the kids just staring at their father, in I don't know how long has born his testimony.) "I know this church is true, and I have to thank sister Judkins personally....because with out her we wouldn't be here today, (pretty much thanking me for being a pain in the butt ;) ... yes I start blubbering again... the spirit was so strong. there is still a lot of work to do, but ultimately they can do it, all they need is Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and a testimony that yea, craps going to happen, but you HOLD ON TO THAT WHICH IS GOOD.....read the scriptures every. Day, say prayers morning and night, attend church and partake of the sacrament!
Yesterday SUNDAY....I was this close ( ) to not being able to partake of the sacrament, because we got in a car wreck (not bad, all is fine) my comp side swiped another driver (which by the way I took a picture of with just for fun :) but I finally felt something a very dear friend Erica explained to me, she said. "I felt like I needed the sacrament so bad, I needed that cleansing for the rest of the week" I could feel how important it was to her. Yesterday we missed the sacrament, and I felt so devastated, my heart sank, I needed that cleanses so bad, with all my heart I needed to feel that peace of the atonement in my life, after such a trying week. My companion was sad because she said we missed Holland getting the Holy Ghost, when we got there, it ended up that something happened and she wasn't getting it until next Sunday! So we didn't miss it. we were lucky to just barely make it after Gospel principles to the sacrament right after ours, and step in late for RS....my heart was filled with peace when the bread and water was passed to me, and I was able to LET GO all of the stuff that happened through out the week, and hold on to the good.
I know that the sacrament is so important to us. Father in Heaven loves us; he knows we need extra help each week. we get to have that extra help as we attend our meetings and sincerely partake of the sacrament to renew our covenants made with God at Baptism!!! WOW! huge lesson for me!
Gary is getting baptized May 10th, I'm so excited because Gary has been like a brother to me, and it's exciting to watch him and the families he's been around grow and strengthen, another testimony that Miracles DO occur still. I'm supposed to speak at it, I hope that I can express what the spirit speak, and what it is that I feel.
It's been weird, my heart is so full, and I feel so blessed...really....I am....but this has been progressive, because if you would have asked me 48 hours ago I wouldn't have said I feel so "blessed" the Lord Loveth those that he chastens, well I sure feel chastened that's for sure.... you know it's funny because today I was thinking "wait, I thought all of my refining was done." I didn't feel that another would be a comm'n round the corner!!! I guess that means I haven't received the tittle of "perfect angel" yet...soon, I'm working on it. but for know when chastening comes, I guess I have to realize that Heavenly Father is (as hard as it is to watch me struggle and hurt) refining me, shaping me, I can almost here him say "I'm not done with you yet Sister Judkins"...it at those moments when I have a choice, "Do I really trust Him?"
I bear my testimony that I know that the only way to true happiness is to trust in God with all our heart, might mind and strength.....that's 100% of me.... I have never realized that before, what a blessing to feel the saviors love when we need it most. we feel that hand on our chest saying just as mom did to my brother Joe laying on that field 2 days ago, struggling for breath..."Joe....it's OK...I'm here".....I'm so thankful for my mother and her trials she has fought through, I love you mom with all my heart, I love knowing that you are a women I want to strive to become for like. thank you for being so patient with me and lifting me up and helping me believe that nothing can hold me back in doing what I am set out to do! you have been an inspiration to me as I remember what you taught me I use it here on my mission all the time. I love you mom!
I am so grateful for all the women and mothers that have taken me in as one of their own (practically) ;) and showed me such love and concern as I have been on my mission and away from home. I love you with all my heart and express my sincerest gratitude and heartfelt appreciation when I say happy mothers day and thank you. and we will stay in contact. yes...I will send wedding announcements...;)
I love you all
from here to Heaven
-the One and Only----Sister Judkins :D (thank goodness there's only one) yeah yeah I know ya'll were think'n that! ;)
Well this week has been CRAZY!!!! A week of chastening and rebuking... (Darn it, I swear I didn't ask for it) .but overall, it ended in an incredible experience with Holland's Baptism on Saturday the 7th. What an incredible feeling of love and a wonderful blessing of a forever family soon to be. Her dad was actually able to baptize her. It was a blessing. It was a very emotional day for the family and yes....I cried as well. The spirit was so strong. Her dad was asked by Bishop to say a few words after the baptism. And it went a little like this:
“As you can see that was a very emotional thing for me and my family. I appreciate all of your support and I know you all really love us. And if there’s anything I can do for you, give me a call, and I will be there. my son Cain (who is deaf, but has an implant) came up to me after and I had him promise me something "cane, you promise me that you'll baptize all of your kids...promise me".....I couldn't baptize my oldest kids Lexxi and Cain, and I can't tell you how bad that makes me feel knowing how I feel now after baptizing Holland." (The whole family in the front row and my at the piano and their dad speaking are now all crying...all the kids just staring at their father, in I don't know how long has born his testimony.) "I know this church is true, and I have to thank sister Judkins personally....because with out her we wouldn't be here today, (pretty much thanking me for being a pain in the butt ;) ... yes I start blubbering again... the spirit was so strong. there is still a lot of work to do, but ultimately they can do it, all they need is Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and a testimony that yea, craps going to happen, but you HOLD ON TO THAT WHICH IS GOOD.....read the scriptures every. Day, say prayers morning and night, attend church and partake of the sacrament!
Yesterday SUNDAY....I was this close ( ) to not being able to partake of the sacrament, because we got in a car wreck (not bad, all is fine) my comp side swiped another driver (which by the way I took a picture of with just for fun :) but I finally felt something a very dear friend Erica explained to me, she said. "I felt like I needed the sacrament so bad, I needed that cleansing for the rest of the week" I could feel how important it was to her. Yesterday we missed the sacrament, and I felt so devastated, my heart sank, I needed that cleanses so bad, with all my heart I needed to feel that peace of the atonement in my life, after such a trying week. My companion was sad because she said we missed Holland getting the Holy Ghost, when we got there, it ended up that something happened and she wasn't getting it until next Sunday! So we didn't miss it. we were lucky to just barely make it after Gospel principles to the sacrament right after ours, and step in late for RS....my heart was filled with peace when the bread and water was passed to me, and I was able to LET GO all of the stuff that happened through out the week, and hold on to the good.
I know that the sacrament is so important to us. Father in Heaven loves us; he knows we need extra help each week. we get to have that extra help as we attend our meetings and sincerely partake of the sacrament to renew our covenants made with God at Baptism!!! WOW! huge lesson for me!
Gary is getting baptized May 10th, I'm so excited because Gary has been like a brother to me, and it's exciting to watch him and the families he's been around grow and strengthen, another testimony that Miracles DO occur still. I'm supposed to speak at it, I hope that I can express what the spirit speak, and what it is that I feel.
It's been weird, my heart is so full, and I feel so blessed...really....I am....but this has been progressive, because if you would have asked me 48 hours ago I wouldn't have said I feel so "blessed" the Lord Loveth those that he chastens, well I sure feel chastened that's for sure.... you know it's funny because today I was thinking "wait, I thought all of my refining was done." I didn't feel that another would be a comm'n round the corner!!! I guess that means I haven't received the tittle of "perfect angel" yet...soon, I'm working on it. but for know when chastening comes, I guess I have to realize that Heavenly Father is (as hard as it is to watch me struggle and hurt) refining me, shaping me, I can almost here him say "I'm not done with you yet Sister Judkins"...it at those moments when I have a choice, "Do I really trust Him?"
I bear my testimony that I know that the only way to true happiness is to trust in God with all our heart, might mind and strength.....that's 100% of me.... I have never realized that before, what a blessing to feel the saviors love when we need it most. we feel that hand on our chest saying just as mom did to my brother Joe laying on that field 2 days ago, struggling for breath..."Joe....it's OK...I'm here".....I'm so thankful for my mother and her trials she has fought through, I love you mom with all my heart, I love knowing that you are a women I want to strive to become for like. thank you for being so patient with me and lifting me up and helping me believe that nothing can hold me back in doing what I am set out to do! you have been an inspiration to me as I remember what you taught me I use it here on my mission all the time. I love you mom!
I am so grateful for all the women and mothers that have taken me in as one of their own (practically) ;) and showed me such love and concern as I have been on my mission and away from home. I love you with all my heart and express my sincerest gratitude and heartfelt appreciation when I say happy mothers day and thank you. and we will stay in contact. yes...I will send wedding announcements...;)
I love you all
from here to Heaven
-the One and Only----Sister Judkins :D (thank goodness there's only one) yeah yeah I know ya'll were think'n that! ;)
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Letter #57
Hey Family!!!!! -official and adopted :)
This week has been ugh....well... interesting and challenging....testimony building....are those all good words...OK?
Pretty much all of our golden appointments fell through this week with our golden investigators. :( But this is what I think is happening. I told (those of you that know me well, know that I always tell god my plans and thinking patterns. He is my father, right, he knew what he was getting into when he sent me here :) I tell him my plan and then he tells me how he likes it.) So heavenly Father and I chatted and I told him my whole thinking pattern... this is what I came up with:
We worked hard to set up how we thought everything would work good, and then Heavenly Father said, "Oh, nice, good work now let me come and help you a little." So I truly feel and have faith that God is working in his time table now....when life throws you junk than you can find the treasure you wouldn't have found before, because you were looking for something else. So I'm excited and praying A LOT!!! PRAYING A LOT! Did I mention that! :)
Holland and her mom (who hadn't been to church regularly for 20 years) and dad came to church Sunday! He left before priesthood started and I went out to their car and said, "hey, didn't see you in priesthood man"....he laughed and said, "Really you didn't see me in the back...behind the curtains...." I stared at him with my "don't mess with me man" face. He laughed and said "yeah, yeah" I know.... but Holland went all 3 hours and sat by her mom at the beginning of RS and her mom squeezed her hand, because she was happy to be there. Holland is all set for 11Am baptism this Saturday! It’s going to be great! Cain her brother got work changed so he won’t have to work till 4pm on Sundays. So he'll be at church too. And then Lexi her older sister, we need to work on her now. Slowly but surely with LOTS of LOVE!!! We are going to start FHE in their home after Holland's baptism to help their family with their goal of being sealed in the temple!!! :D MOST AMAZING THINGS IN THE WORLD!!!
Curtis’s aunt wants him to wait. So he won’t be baptized on the 7th. But it will happen, he's crushed about it, but Aunt said she wants to make sure he is going to stick with it and wants to see more love from him towards her. So our lesson yesterday was good. he didn't come to church because of baseball, and he said "feel really bad, like I've done something wrong," I said "well that's how your supposed to feel, because Heavenly Father wants you at church to strengthen and renew your promises you will make when you’re baptized." It was really a great lesson!
We are catching up and re-contacting new people each day, and part member families. I'm just praying that I can be of good use to Heavenly Father here, it’s incredible, and that's why we need to give our A game and ask god for help.
A really neat thing I learned this week is this: "We are what we want"....it's hard to explain, but for me, we shouldn't have to be told how amazing we are or what we can and cannot do to be great by anyone....we should figure out what it is that we truly want.....I want a happy life, family, schooling, I want to be a fitness instructor, I want to be a POWERFUL missionary and a force for good were ever I go...etc...Well if I wake up in the morning and tell myself. "I'm a looser....I'm not special...so and so's Patriarchal blessing says these great things about her or him mine doesn't say that and so I'm a nobody...."
Well..... then that's just about all you'll ever be.....I had a hard week, and Satan likes to get us on our hard days I've experience (darn him) he likes us to tear ourselves down so our future looks bleak and grim, when in reality we have the AGENCY to CHOOSE! We might not be able to choose how we feel, but we will be able to choose how we ACT and what we DO when we feel certain ways. I hope this makes sense. I'm excited because this is a new concept that recently helped me realize that "I am what I say I am"....and what I want, I'll eventually become in eternity".... thanks Katie for that letter.
Thank you for writing me and sending me talks that uplifts and helps me think and refine who I am out here in Texas! I love it here. I wouldn't trade this journey I'm on for anything in the WHOLE WORLD!!! NO WAY!!! NO HOW....it's incredible how God works to send me to others and to send others to me.... missionary work is the BEST work in the ENTIRE UNIVERSE!!! I've never been more rebuked and happy in my whole life!!
I love you all from here to Heaven
Sister Judkins
This week has been ugh....well... interesting and challenging....testimony building....are those all good words...OK?
Pretty much all of our golden appointments fell through this week with our golden investigators. :( But this is what I think is happening. I told (those of you that know me well, know that I always tell god my plans and thinking patterns. He is my father, right, he knew what he was getting into when he sent me here :) I tell him my plan and then he tells me how he likes it.) So heavenly Father and I chatted and I told him my whole thinking pattern... this is what I came up with:
We worked hard to set up how we thought everything would work good, and then Heavenly Father said, "Oh, nice, good work now let me come and help you a little." So I truly feel and have faith that God is working in his time table now....when life throws you junk than you can find the treasure you wouldn't have found before, because you were looking for something else. So I'm excited and praying A LOT!!! PRAYING A LOT! Did I mention that! :)
Holland and her mom (who hadn't been to church regularly for 20 years) and dad came to church Sunday! He left before priesthood started and I went out to their car and said, "hey, didn't see you in priesthood man"....he laughed and said, "Really you didn't see me in the back...behind the curtains...." I stared at him with my "don't mess with me man" face. He laughed and said "yeah, yeah" I know.... but Holland went all 3 hours and sat by her mom at the beginning of RS and her mom squeezed her hand, because she was happy to be there. Holland is all set for 11Am baptism this Saturday! It’s going to be great! Cain her brother got work changed so he won’t have to work till 4pm on Sundays. So he'll be at church too. And then Lexi her older sister, we need to work on her now. Slowly but surely with LOTS of LOVE!!! We are going to start FHE in their home after Holland's baptism to help their family with their goal of being sealed in the temple!!! :D MOST AMAZING THINGS IN THE WORLD!!!
Curtis’s aunt wants him to wait. So he won’t be baptized on the 7th. But it will happen, he's crushed about it, but Aunt said she wants to make sure he is going to stick with it and wants to see more love from him towards her. So our lesson yesterday was good. he didn't come to church because of baseball, and he said "feel really bad, like I've done something wrong," I said "well that's how your supposed to feel, because Heavenly Father wants you at church to strengthen and renew your promises you will make when you’re baptized." It was really a great lesson!
We are catching up and re-contacting new people each day, and part member families. I'm just praying that I can be of good use to Heavenly Father here, it’s incredible, and that's why we need to give our A game and ask god for help.
A really neat thing I learned this week is this: "We are what we want"....it's hard to explain, but for me, we shouldn't have to be told how amazing we are or what we can and cannot do to be great by anyone....we should figure out what it is that we truly want.....I want a happy life, family, schooling, I want to be a fitness instructor, I want to be a POWERFUL missionary and a force for good were ever I go...etc...Well if I wake up in the morning and tell myself. "I'm a looser....I'm not special...so and so's Patriarchal blessing says these great things about her or him mine doesn't say that and so I'm a nobody...."
Well..... then that's just about all you'll ever be.....I had a hard week, and Satan likes to get us on our hard days I've experience (darn him) he likes us to tear ourselves down so our future looks bleak and grim, when in reality we have the AGENCY to CHOOSE! We might not be able to choose how we feel, but we will be able to choose how we ACT and what we DO when we feel certain ways. I hope this makes sense. I'm excited because this is a new concept that recently helped me realize that "I am what I say I am"....and what I want, I'll eventually become in eternity".... thanks Katie for that letter.
Thank you for writing me and sending me talks that uplifts and helps me think and refine who I am out here in Texas! I love it here. I wouldn't trade this journey I'm on for anything in the WHOLE WORLD!!! NO WAY!!! NO HOW....it's incredible how God works to send me to others and to send others to me.... missionary work is the BEST work in the ENTIRE UNIVERSE!!! I've never been more rebuked and happy in my whole life!!
I love you all from here to Heaven
Sister Judkins
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